From the moment i love u

zaman dolu-dolu ....married and aina was 6 months old..main angkat2 kening2 lak

(I do swear that I'll always be there.I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,for better for worse, I will love you withevery beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment onFrom this moment
I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you,
can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment
as long as I liveI will love you,
I promise you this
There is nothing
I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason
I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of usMy dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you,
I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

Aina my love one too..........................

Tahun kedua ramadhan bersama aina

Selamat menyambut ramadhan..ucapan buat semua,

Hari pertama ramadhan kali ini, tahun kedua bersama aina, kalau dulu tak perlu masak, sekarang kene masak tuk aina, layan aina makan,layan aina main..aina yang dah genap setahun 3 bulan.....adoi...keliur dan kepenatan..

Dalam hati rezeki aku jugak kalau aku termakan sama aina....hahaha..dalam beberapa jam selepas itu , aku pun dgn selambanyer makan keropok aina, setelah satu mulut penuh aku sumbat, baru aku teringat....hhahahahaha...rezeki namanye......................

Ramadhan first yr of marriage, the moment aku pregnatkan aina...disaster ade juga...alahan teruk..asal sahur, buka semua aku throw out kan balik...Today, ramadhan third year of this marriage, yes am positive again after had a missed carriage last three months, mungkin rezeki kali ini, doaku agar everything gonna be smoothly as it should be, morning sickness tu ade..cuma penat tu lebih la skit layan dak cik, lagi2 hubby takde, balik koyan sehari, ade klas and training seminggu...manyak sedih uuu sorang2 je minggu pertama ramadhan nih..tak sabar rasenyer nak balik kg buka puasa masakan mak kat serting...cepat la merdeka.........

Huhuhuh...sabar sabar...dugaan sepanjang bulan mulia ini, banyakkan baca al quran, tarawih, berfikiran baik, berkelakuan baik [ingatkan diri sendiri la nih]..............

Suspense

Hmm.......suspen betul semalam. As ussual..che macam biasa plak....yela...within this two months, every two weeks, buat follow up aina punyer kaki patah..semalam kali yang ke 4 jumpa doc...

aku mmg suspen tunggu result x ray aina...every meeting mesti result mengejutkan and dah 2 kali tukar cast, so kalau this time still bengkok atau tak ok, aku buntu, kata kat hubby, terpaksa juga pi columbia tuk tukar cast yang lebih effective..if la...tapi mmg guilty, worries, stress and mcm2la..smpi aku tak le pikir ape pun...

kami dtg awal ke hospital. seawal kul 6 mmg aku bgn dah la...tapi lambat gak geraknyer, pukul 8 dari melaka dan bernasib baik, abg musa bg kancil hijau daun pisang ala glamour kat kitorang, dan berkatnyer itu we all smpi pukul 9.30 di Hospital ampuan Najihah, pilah..

mesti ramai tanyer apesal tak follow up melaka...pasal H1N1 la...doc Hosp pilah dah siap buat surat tuk transfer kan aina ke sana, tapi pikir balik masalah H1N1 kat melaka, we just have to take the precaution la....jauh pun jauh la...

Balik pada menunggu, selepas selesai buat x ray, 11.30 doc panggil masuk...aku dukung aina je pasal dah start menangis br bgn dari tido [sempat gak aina tido, sonang jiwo den, klu tak satu hospital hubby terpaksa bawak round2).....masuk2 je hospital, doc dgn nada serius kata kene bukak spica cast nih..aku pun terkejut..kenapa, kene buat baru ke?teruk ke lagi?....

Doc bley plak tanye aku balik?habis nak pakai sampai bile? .......la suspen jer....lega tak tahu nak kata, remove the cast, aina should be stimulated to walk again...hmm kitorang antara yang last tinggalkan bilik pakar 2..bayangkan lamonyer tapi happy skitla kali ni..tak sempat singgah serting, aku nak bg budak test petang nih.....

Akhirnyer............ainaku..

sian aina, she tried to walk again like she is still in the hip spica cast, straighten her leg, afraid to bent it...huh sekian lama aina tak mandi ala bath tub, gembira betul die dapat berendam.

excited nak tgk progress aina, tapi not afford to have any leave, byk sebabnyer, bg jela pada kak sal jaga ..sayang kak sal kat aina ni..last time demam campak, mandikan aina dengan daun semambu, aina patah kaki balutkan dgn daun tembaga suasa...terharu lak, kak yang pun ade bg minyak but but untuk sapu dan balut...igt tunggu seminggu nanti bawak aina berurut ...

tunggu dan lihat progress aina

Femur Fracture/ patah tulang peha

all had happened about one and a half month ago 23 of June 2009. Due to car accident, so happened, aina' broke her right thigh bone or we called femur fractured. The discussion with the doc didnot successfully conveince me aina would be ok. Aina baru setahun tika itu dan amat susah menerima kenyataan doc akan berlaku shortening pada kaki kanannya.

Kami balik dan menunggu aina to recover and a week later kaki aina di x ray lagi and the results was a shocked!!!!there s malallignment tapi doc explain baby 1 year akan recover cepat. Ye kami accept whatever the doc said. and for ma satisfaction, I searched from various news , article and I got lot of information which some do relieving, but some are not.

At first aku carik semua information dalam bahasa.. unfortunately, tiada yang exact information
yang aku dapat, Id ve to find it in english. yes i had a lots then.

And because of that , aku kat sini, hoping, rase macam nk fill in ma blog with little knowledge and experience to help out the other who might experience the same thing.

Femur fracture atau dalam bahasa patah tulang peha mmg kerap berlaku pada kanak 2-12 tahun. dan most sebab jatuh di taman permainan. tulang peha adalah tulang paling kuat manusia, tapi oleh sebab hentakan kuat seperti kemalangan jalan raya, ia boleh patah.

Back to our accident, after a week aina ditukar dgr plaster spica cast yang baru...setiap 2 minngu lepas tu kena wat check up. after 2 weeks with the new spica, aina started to crawl n golek2 kiri kanan. aku mmg risau tapi just imagine anak setahun how to force her not to do. lagi keras die nak melawan, nak sedapkan hati mungkin aina dah ok boleh gerak dan mmg byk bloggers kata budak cepat recover and mmg kalau tgk u tube omputih tunjuk anak depa walking and crawling in the hip spica.

4 weeks later, buat lagi x ray, keputusan lebih memanrajat kan...we thought aina punyer spica boleh bukak coz dah 6 mggu tapi her thigh dari sisi yang sepatutnya lurus, die pulak pulak yang tak allign properly..jantung sape tak luruh melihatnyer..[earlier, peha aina tak allign dari bhgn depan jer..sekarang dedua....[macam mane nih ...aku mmg sedih, kesian kat aina] patah yang lama tuh mmg kami nampak perubahannya, byk tulang baru tumbuh sekelilingnya, but we knew already, definately, aina akan dalam spica paling kurang another 4 weeks.....

we decided to change the plaster to fiberglass, plaster spica tuh dah longgar sebenarnya, patut kami tukar cepat tapi pikir jugak kesian pada aina proses memotong semen tu, pasang balik, aku yang ngilu...aina pun nangis...hmmm fiberglass baru ni ringan sikit, hopefully, aina lebih selesa dan tak menerima beban yang berat....aku tahu fiberglass nih pun when i did my readings.. gh doc wont tell u any further details..too many patient, overload cause them heartless and timeless to explain you everything..tho dissappointed that is the reality we should faced ...they deal with people..it hard to deal with people, isnt it/..maybe..yes we went to columbia too. the services was very good..wish to come and have the treatment there earlier but already to late, and further the answer still them same

To aina, sabar yer sayang, Allah sayang kat aina, dugaan ni buat mama dan bapak..
Kami cuba yang sebaiknya buat aina,

aina,

mama tak minta semua ni terjadi.............maafkan mama, mama tak pegang aina kuat2 masa dalam kereta tu...smoga cepat sembuh sayang

I will always pray for you as long as i live and day after............................

to my mum, my all ma siblings, relative thanks for support and mercy ...
Hanya Allah yang dapat membalas jasa baik kalian
aku ...aku masih mengharap...mengharap sesuatu kebaikan buat aina tersayang...

M the beginner having some reasons

People do have some reasons in making eirs decision....so do I..reasons to tell/express the thought of mine milikku to share the happy ending which will never know when it s gonna b...will see